It's a classic thing to happen inside of me. Recently, things have been going very well with Erzullie. I had a collaboration with Q-York and after that a heartfelt interview with Entrep TV. After doing all the aftermaths --- post press and clean up --- I have decided to go to BGC to at least have a change of scenery.
I have been in Eastwood too long. I need some Taguig air.
I went there and looked through my usual section. Out of my curiousity, I saw this book about Chinese horoscopes. These things have not always been kind to me. Last 2014, it didn't exactly paint my year right. So for 2015, I have decided to forgo that and just get lost my own way. 2015 was cruel and hilarious to me. So whether or not I have read anything bad, I felt like crap anyway.
So, as that year 2015 was about to end. I wanted to own my 2016. I don't know what happened to me but for the first time in the long time, I felt great. It felt like I can actually have a great year. So, with all my positivity, I opened that Chinese horoscope again ---just to confirm this great feeling. I looked at mine and saw a disturbing news about a specific month due to a specific start that fell on that gauge.
I felt down.
I felt worried.
I felt --- "World! Why me?"
It was at that point that I thought to myself, if I didn't go and open that book, I think I would have stayed on may positive path and would go on just fine. But this disturbed me,, why do we always look for trouble or something that might go wrong, when everything around us is totally fine?
I was thinking, maybe we want to be ready. Maybe we also just want to validate what we are feeling. Or maybe we just really can't believe it that for the first time in a very long time, everything is fine. We look for the things that are about to ruin it because that is the only thing we can count on.
Now isn't that a nightmare?
Just a thought.
No cheers here.
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